Feeling Blue as the Dickens 4 Days Post Op

I am 4 days out today. I have felt so crummy. I know I just had major surgery, but I feel empty.  Not excited, not like I have a new life ahead of health.  Just empty.  Has this happened to any one???? I don't even care about weight.  I drink water and protein and walk.  The days ahead seem endless.  This is more scary than my anxiety. 
   Dr. Boe is amazing.   It was so cool to have Kim Z. visit me in the hospital.  But none of these postings seem like me.   I must be a mutant.  Everyone here is so psyched and I am just nothing.   Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

The first two weeks after surgery be ready for emotional turmoil.  Your body is releasing hormones in response to the release of fat and what not.  Many many MANY of us have had the same experience.  I would begin to cry for absolutely no reason multiple times after surgery.

It gets a little bit better after awhile...but they can creep up at unexpected times.  My monthly friend sends me into a very depressed crying moody state (where as before surgery I would just get pissy before hand...now I cry if the sun shines the wrong way...)

The "rollercoaster ride" we describe this surgery as does not just relate to weight loss and stalls and things like that...but also the emotional portion of this journey.

I'm glad you took the time to post this....because others need to know people feel this way and you need to be able to express yourself.

Know that you are supported...and you will get through this one hour at a time if needed.  You don't need to think of "the days ahead seem endless"  Rather...you need to concentrate on this hour,this minute, this second.  If you try to see all the days ahead, it can be over whelming.

Hang in there.

Pam

You're normal. Just relax.

Nothing fun at all about my first post-op week, either.

7 days of gagging down crushed pills and volcanic diarhea. It SUCKED SUCKED SUCKED.

You are far from nothing, you're right there with everybody else.

It's your job to drink, walk, and get your protein in. If you don't do that, your bodt won't heal.

So chill out. :) It' going to get so much better!

Sorry to hear you're feeling so down but it will get better - part of the 'blues' could be from the anesthesia as well - that does some weird things to a person's body. And right now you're probably not able to do a whole lot, but that will change as well. You're going to be just fine - give yourself some time.Surgery is very emotional and scarey - maybe you're just feeling those things now? Man, the weirdest time in my life was when I got married - I was so excited about the wedding and everything - smiling like a radiant bride going up the aisle - after the ceremony and when we got to the end of the aisle I burst into tears and cried like a baby - I think it was all the emotional stress leaving my body since the stressful part was over and I could finally relax! Emotions, hormones, all those things will wreak havoc with you for a while. But you're sane, and you're going to do just fine.

Kathy

The others have said it best about release of hormones which can affect our moods.  Its a tough time for you now - but please leverage all of us here to help you through this.  When you really get down - think back to your reasons for having the surgery.  Your life ahead will be so better in so many ways.   Like everyone before you - most of us  'expected' to wake up thinner and feeling like a million bucks, but thats not the reality. 

One of the things that helps me when I get down (and I do from time to time still) is journaling.  It you journal these feelings as you go through your journey - your journal will help you in months and years to come when similar feelings creep back in.

You are a beautiful woman with the world ahead of you.  I'm so glad we got to meet this week. Try to feel better and post when you can

Kim Z.

relax. Just ride the wave. What you are experiencing is normal. It is all very serious and scary. I did not get excited for at least 4 mos LOL

Thanks for sharing how you are feeling.  It is helpful to me to hear what others are experiencing.  My surgery is in two weeks and I am having mixed feelings about the whole thing.  Scared, Anxious, tearful, excited.  I wonder what emotion will win out on the big day?

I keep telling my self to take one day at a time and that this too shall pass, it is all only temporary (liquid diet!!) and such.

Take care of yourself.

I too cried and felt crappy around day 4 or 5. It didn't last long, but I was definently second guessing what I had done to myself. The first 6 weeks are hard as you transition through the food stages and you emotionally detach from food for comfort.

At 12 weeks out I can tell you however that it gets WAY better. Hang on.

I felt like crap for the first couple weeks.  I hurt.  Couldn't sleep comfortably.  One of the wounds was leaky.  I couldn't clean up around my apartment.  I felt like I had nowhere to go, nothing to do.  I kept asking, "What in the world did I do to myself???  Can I un-do this???  Life sucks!"

This will pass.  Honestly, it will.  So many doors are about to open up for you.  Life's going to be brand new and so exciting.  Really.

Hey, so sorry to hear you are feeling so down.  But look how far we have come already - remember me?  I was looking for a walking buddy (I was day 2) and you were barely making it around one lap (weren't you day one post op)?  I keep reminding myself of my goals - rollar coasters, horsebackriding (my daughter gets a kick out of this), health......
Do you feel up to going to the support group meeting Wednesday at Barix?  I may try to make it - if so, I hope to see you there!                                                        Mary